September 1, 2000

September 1st 9:09 a.m.

Alive. A beautiful morning. the rain has been coming down all night and now the light is so dreamy and the view out my window is lush and moist. i have not slept all night. too much adrenaline in my body. Last night coming down a hill in my black pickup truck on a street flooded with rain, a car in front of me spun out of control. i saw it happen like a movie sped up. it happened too fast for me to do much but swerve and try not to slam on the brakes and skid on the flooded road and hit a telephone pole or mailbox or oncoming car. nevertheless i landed in a ditch off the road completely spun around facing the other way. it shook me up but after composing myself for several minutes and a gentleman running over to see if i was okay and pushing me back on the road as i eased down the gas pedal , i got home heart racing but physically unhurt except for some pain and stiff muscles now in my neck .

Can there be anything more full of life at this moment than to be held and kissed and squeezed by the one you love deeply ?

Yes. To hold them and kiss them back.

Are you there? Are you reading this? I miss you. Make love to me.

“I’m with you to forget my loneliness…”