Sept 3 12:43 a.m.
Finally . Slept deeply last night . Yesterday was surreal as I had
not slept at all or hardly eaten.
Spent a couple of hours at Tower looking at books and taking in music.
A friend treated me to a Thai dinner of basil rolls and spicy soup.
That pulling sensation in my heart again. That aching .
That sense of vast and endless loneliness.
I know why sex becomes an addiction for some people.
You can completely lose yourself in it.
There is a dark angel with the longest eyelashes I have ever
and somehow he came into my life and captured my heart..
This angel has told me repeatedly that he cannot stay for long.
And so I must live in the moment and remember that he is an
angel and not of this world.
SO when this angel holds me , sometimes tears roll down my
cheeks and he does not know.
I just have one question. How many times in my life is my heart
to be destroyed?