December 10, 2000

Dec 10

I have started mega-intensive running again. If I do it in the morning, I feel relaxed all day. This may be the key to getting back to optimal functioning.

I have been confused and lost —– but it is all up to me to find the path once again and correct the mistakes I have made in the past and —-begin again.

i will continue to love unashamed but not expect love in return.

I will continue to move forward without a chip on my shoulder.

I will not react with anger to constructive criticism said to me because those things are said from a place of compassion.

And if I feel afraid of being alone or longing of another woman’s relationship with a man who worships her, i will remember :

We are afterall all of us alone in the world.

I will continue to love him for the rest of my life no matter what. And I hope he will be happy and have a good life.