January 17, 2001

January 17, 2001 Los Angeles

I find myself this morning completely open and receptive. This trip has brought me to a place inside myself where I have found myself staring back at me. The realization of the relationship with ME. There is a dialogue afterall inside all of us. It’s just that a lot of times it gets buried and shuts down. And isn’t it easier to listen to all the pseudo voices around you than face yourself.

Since my last Artery, I was privledged to hear new music from Tool at the studio where they are currently mixing their new album, went out to dinner at a place I loved called Dar Maghred with Maynard James Keenan and new friend- William Faith, flew to San Franciso and recorded vocals in a studio in Sausalito with Oxbow, had brunch with Percy Howard and discussed our upcoming concert plans involving Bill Rieflin, and then yesterday back in L.A., after getting up from maybe 2 hours sleep at 5:30 a.m. and finding meself sitting in the makeup trailer getting my face airburushed with makeup and my hair styled by complete pros but barely able to keep my eyes open, then going back to my trailer near the set to rest , I sucessfully won the battle against a formidable attack from what felt like a cold/flu virus thanks too every herbal warrior i could blast at it along with sheer f*cking will power and discipline earned from my experience of brutal Swans touring scenarios…and spent the entire day at Paramount on the set of ‘Vanilla Sky’ (which was built and decorated to look like a wealthy art and book collector’s apartment in the Dakota in NYC . Peter Townsend’s smashed guitar hung inside plexiglass on one wall , Chuck Close’s painting of Robert Rauschenberg on another wall, various priceless religious artifacts, etc etc,in the ‘library’…) where I had what felt like an ‘undercover’ experience of being in a group scene as well as the honor of closely observing Mr. Cameron Crowe’s direction of actors Tom Cruise, Penelope Cruz, and Cameron Diaz in the scene. I have again come to the conclusion that Cameron Crowe is a true gentleman. At the end of the night, he gave me a little Japanese style bow with his hands together and told me I had ‘honored’ him with my presence on the set that day. 🙂 How awesome is THAT !! I had a memorable time and also now firsthand experienced based respect for the extras and background actors and crew on films of this level. The associate producer of this film, Mr. Scott Michael Martin, has got to be one of the coolest and hippest guys in Hollywood because not only is he a lot of fun to be with but he has the most impressive collection of experimental and non mainstream records and cds, etc. I have ever seen. 🙂 How cool is that !!! You know what ?? I have yet to personally see the tired cliched view of Hollywood the way it is generally portrayed. This is a new Hollywood and it is so great to have guys in power like these….