December 31, 2002

December 31, 2002 12:06 AM

“Here began his rapture. Suddenly it was like a runaway stallion breaking free of the yoke. A wild strength flowed into his arms as he held the woman. He clasped her tighter, feeling their two bodies shake like the mast of a plunging ship ..Her tight-shut eyes looked at Isao with a force stronger than that of vision.. He was startled by the sweetness that began to flow gently through him once their mouths were joined. The world trembled at the point of contact between their lips. From this point radiated a transformation that altered his very flesh. The sensation of being steeped in something indescribably warm and smooth reached a climax when he realized that he had drunk in some of Makiko’s saliva.. When they finally drew their lips apart, they clung to each other and wept. ” -excerpts from Yukio Mishima RUNAWAY HORSES.

” Loss of the erotic object (unfaithfulness or desertion by the lover or husband, divorce, etc.) is felt by the woman as an assault on her genitality and , from that point of view, amounts to castration. At once, such a castration starts resonating with the threat of destruction of the body’s integrity, the body image, and the entire psychic system as well. As a result, feminine castration, rather than being diseroticized, is concealed by narcissistic anguish, which masters and protects eroticism as a ‘shameful secret’. Even though a woman has no penis to lose, it is her entire being – body and especially soul – that she feels is threatened by castration. As if her phallus were her psyche, the loss of the erotic object breaks up and threatens to empty her whole psychic life. The outer loss is immediately and depressively experienced as an inner void. ” – Julia Kristeva BLACK SUN