June 26, 2003

June 26, 2003 02:16 AM

Tonight I reminded myself that every time fear entered, I got through it. I would like to relax and give myself permission to experience pleasure, to allow myself that gift. I miss the transcendence we shared in sex. That hunger is stronger in me every day. To completely leave my body and be perfectly in the moment outside of myself. I gave everything . His pleasure was my pleasure. There was no greed within us. It was the most beautiful thing I had known. . . Maybe I am recovering.

…………. …………. F I R E