October 18, 2003 02:20 AM
tonight i experienced “balance” in the most beautiful way i can imagine. in rehearsal, we worked on HALF-LIFE and BUTCHER and WEAKLING. All early FILTH/COP era SWANS . Back at home in the house shrouded by a private garden, the recordings of Antonio Carlos Jobim filled the air . Bartholomew soared and then we danced together to a sexy samba. I LOVE JOBIM. This is where the joy lives and ingested with early SWANS , it makes a balanced diet. I actually felt a slice …a slice of “love and happiness” and life suddenly made sense. Here is what I can tell you I know. Your attitude ? Your expectations ? What you are sending OUT ? Well, it determines the INPUT. In other words, you make your own experience of reality by what you are putting out. Try it .
……………… LOVE IN THE TRUE SENSE IS THE MOST AMAZING SELF REALIZATION POSSIBLE.