October 31, 2003

October 31, 2003 05:53 AM

What a beautiful evening this has been. The air is clear. I drove around in the truck and parked at the church and walked in the still night. 6 a.m. again unable to sleep. I’m turned inside out. My mother is dying. The deterioration in her condition is severe. I am experiencing massive isolation from the world . Completing my album is all I can hold on to …and performing in 2004 . The rest is unspeakable. ………..the rest is the powerful and unconditional love i had for him that tonight is burning in the flames of total betrayal.

……………. never trust the one with the pretty face and soft voice. the face will change very soon.