February 02, 2004 01:43 AM
when they came into me i closed my eyes and examined them carefully. the photographs helped me to see more clearly then what my mind recalled on its own. when the memories came out of the darkness, i understood that there was one true answer to all of the suffering i had repeated my entire life. all of the self-destruction whether by my own hand or by the hand of another. the light seared : 30, january 2004 which was the first birthday without my mother on this earth. the awareness is beyond all i can communicate to you now without breath upon you and voice aloud to you from within the deepest part of my blood. love yourself. absorb it into you. this and only this. this and only this. all follows.