May 02, 2004 12:13 AM
In talking with the mentor, I realized that reliability was right at the top of my values. The mentor pointed out to me that I had to examine my expectations of the people with whom I had felt let down. I had to chose more carefully in the beginning because I now had a track record of placing myself in a position guaranteed to result in disappointment. He advised me to move on more quickly in my emotional reaction to events outside of my control. I admitted that for every step I take forward, I have felt too often that I take a step to the side. This results in the sense that I am off course. Distractions are not enough. I am looking for the key.