June 2, 2004

June 02, 2004 02:36 AM

Let it go. . .Last night, I wasn’t able to sleep. I read Thich Nhat Hanh to comfort my racing mind. I am now at a major crossroads in my life. I know that I am not alone in this space. Many other people have been here before. There is a saying : “when one door closes, another one opens.” Change is inevitable. And the fresh baby bird I found that had fallen out of the nest to his death ….today it was black and maggots were on his body. I thought of loved ones who have died. I saw in my mind’s eye a decomposing corpse. I reminded myself that no one escapes death and no one escapes change. I felt compassion fill my heart. I had no anger for anyone. I am now aware of this deep sadness more than anything else and I am observing it as it dances through me. It is like a great wave in the ocean. It surges forward and then recedes. Whatever it is you love. Whomever it is you love. Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. LET IT GO. It is not. I exist for now in this body. I will continue to do my work. I will continue to try and express what comes naturally through this voice and my compositions. The piano is my old friend. My lover.

P E A C E .