June 18, 2004

June 18, 2004 01:00 AM

I’ve been staying up all night working in my studio/office. This means I don’t get out on the path (the running trail around and through the park near my house) until well after 9:25 pm. I am in training for ‘WITHIN” – one on the pieces I will be performing with Neurosis. (Doing “FERAL” last summer really showed me the incredible power of developed lung capacity via running on a regular basis. ) I’m so pleased with the way work is going now. I still have no confirmed date for the show in NYC since it was changed, but I think it will be soon. The rest of this year is going to be one of amazing upheaval and adjustment. I am losing something and I am also gaining something. I don’t have the luxury of mourning or taking my time. I have to survive on my own. There are no welcoming arms extending comfort or security. There is no place to rest my head and EXHALE. I will hold myself. I will take care of myself. It will be scary at first yet I will take charge and open myself to the world as a woman on her own.