June 24, 2004

June 24, 2004 05:25 AM

If there is one thing I can say with conviction that I have learned in my life, it is that you can ultimately only count on yourself. Sometimes I reflect on all of the wasted time and energy resulting from the projects / activities / romantic involvements/ etc with which I have become entangled thus far. Now in my life, I find that I am again missing male energy. I love the beautiful male anatomy and being close to a man is joyous. Yet men have always been shy around me and I have always been in the position of the pursuer. Sometimes I am comfortable with being without a lover and other times, I miss having a lover. I am still looking for great romance . I am still wondering if I will find it. With all of the things in life a woman could give their energy to, I still see the desire in me. Is this my downfall ?