July 2, 2004

July 02, 2004 04:40 AM

I am still disturbed by whatever it was I saw through the window shade inside the room last night . I still have no idea who or what it was. It will remain one of those weird inexplicable images in my mind that will haunt me for the rest of my life, no doubt. Tonight I had a very rich meal at a Parisian style cafe up the street. It is a low key and incredibly fun place to me. I go there to feel comforted and loved by people enjoying good food and companionship “off the beaten path.” I had a considerable amount of strong wine for the last time for awhile – as tomorrow I go into training for a concert that will require power / endurance. And I have been thinking something that comes to me as awareness and truth. When a man LOVES you, he is comfortable around you and also accepts you. He does not find “flaws” with you and make you feel self-conscious and uncomfortable. In fact, he supports positivity within you and praises your individuality. If you find a man who loves you, you can know it by these things alone.

XXX