July 22, 2004

July 22, 2004 9:25 PM

Last night, I performed an intense five song set with Neurosis in the middle of their 2 1/2 hour concert. The show was sold out well in advance. The beautiful interior of the Great American Music Hall was an excellent setting for this show. I have performed there twice in Swans so the familiarity of the space was nice. The volume of the sound on the stage was close to overwhelming in its intensity. The good thing about it was that it was like stepping into an open raging sea. A enormous storm in the sea with massive overpowering waves. When I came onto the stage, I immediately realized that I was in the midst of this storm and that to keep from going down under the waves, I would have to swim without any resistance. This is what I did. I relaxed and let myself go into the storm at sea with grace and love. The films created for the songs from our album together were beautiful. Members of the band told me at the end of the evening that they were so pleased with the evening that they wanted to recreate the show elsewhere. I hope they decide to go ahead and do it in NYC as Steve suggested to me before I left the venue to come back here to Pacfica. During “Receive” – which is a song inspired by my mother, I could feel my voice in the room. During “Easter” (the Patti Smith song) , Eugene from Oxbow came out and disrobed with the text from the prayer at the end of Easter painted on his back by the lovely Lorraine (Amber Asylum). Eugene was a sculptural element in the performance emboding the child of Cain. I read the prayer from his back. The set ended and the stage went black.

I now have several days here to experience the healing elements of the beach before going up to Seattle.