January 07, 2006 04:14 AM
“I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship.” – Louisa May Alcott *** all is process. all is perseverance and integrity. raise your own bar of excellence and keep reaching. someone once said that to become invincible upon one’s path, one needs to let go of their need for approval. this came easily for me because in my life , i have always been considered an outsider. i was never “cool” in my school days and i had few, if any friends. i did read a lot of books. all of the time. i entertained myself and lived within my imagination. i dated later than other girls. I didn’t know how I was or what i wanted to do. all i understood was that i enjoyed music and books and art and athletic activity as long as it was alone…like climbing or running or hiking. i created myself from myself and had no peer pressure or outside influences other than my own self directed education. i see now that my isolation and outsider status and lack of approval from others were all necessary in forming the person I am today writing to you on this website with a body of work on cds such as Sacrificial Cake or Beautiful People Ltd or The Men Album…and this isolation gave me the courage to be fearless and walk my own path. a path no one else had ever taken. i believe in suffering for one’s art. i know it is a cliche. i believe in it. i also believe in “no pain. no gain” and in great achievement only coming to those who dare to fail greatly. move forward in 2006. you know where you need to be within yourself. WITHIN YOURSELF. Give up your attachment to be accepted or approved of or part of a scene or community and be yourself. ASK YOURSELF: what is it you want? most people spend their entire lives never asking themselves this question. What do you want? YOU not THEM. YOU!