January 21, 2007

January 21, 2007 01:10 AM

there were all of these reasons, seemingly coincidental, that made me feel strange and uncomfortable. a trusted friend came to me when i called and encouraged me to stand up for myself and to let it be known why i reacted in this way… and said it would be taking back my power. and so i followed the instructions and listened to my instincts and let it be known that there were things that had happened and i had changed inside. i was self-reflective. the word : “respect” returned to me again and again. was this my ego or was this my protective mechanism going up to keep danger from my door ? again and again, i had heard that i had not established boundaries. again and again, i heard that i had laid down and allowed things to happen because i did not speak up for myself. . . and so , i listened to my inner voice that was my own self being a friend. and i spoke up and i did not let it go as if nothing had happened. and for this, i struggled again and again and again. there is a walk that you take alone. be your own true friend. you may not enjoy the comfort of the support of those you want to understand you. to love another and to be loved , you must first love yourself and take a walk alone. ………………… “This above all: to thine own self be true, And it must follow, as the night the day, Thou canst not then be false to any man.” – William Shakespeare