October 31, 2007 9:48 PM
i’ve been aware yet again of something shifting in my perception for several weeks. i could describe it as ” troubled ” but that is qualitative and i cannot give it a specific parameter. all i know is that the shifting emotions and moments of clarity then fog are seemingly coloring everything again and it is for the most part like watching a film of someone else’s life. in life there exists a “non-stop sense of urgency ” and a ” push up that hill” that can alternately be a matter of life and death then suddenly absurd and laughable when thrust in the face of time marching on. sometimes i wonder how i have gotten through the past six + years having an entire ocean as a brain..