August 25, 2008 01:32 AM
Rain Rain Rain. When it storms, I can’t get outside and run. I begin to feel like I am on the verge of exploding from stress. As I write this, a bath gets cold from waiting on me to come to a stop in work. Today I came to the realization that I need a secretary , a maid, and two assistants to actually live my life. I don’t have enough time to exercise like I must and take care of my home and my work and do all the things that are pulling on me making demands at every turn. I get optimistic and excited about a project outside of my own albums and BAM I am taking on more collaborations than I can manage in a year’s time. Right now, I have 4 projects in progress. I am wondering if I can actually once and for all bring them to a successful end and take a deep breath and stop starting new projects . I realize I may seem obsessively creative as I am constantly creating and making something. When I am not actually making something, I am reading and studying about someone else creating something. In my dreams, I am creating art and song. As I drive and shop for groceries, I am elsewhere in my mind creating or analyzing some production I have seen or heard. AGGHH. For days now, I have felt like I am on the verge of exploding. I MUST go for a RUN.