August 6, 2011

August 06, 2011 10:52 PM

busy and bombarded with decisions and actions. thinking about this life and what holds meaning now after this many years on this planet. i’m not bitter towards anyone whose path has crossed mine. i know that i have not walked in their shoes so to denounce someone else’s choices is useless. i do know that there is a steep price to be paid for intimacy with anyone no matter the configuration. after all, i have been called distant and aloof and hard to get to know. i have been called reserved and cold. it isn’t easy to make clear and careful choices. and it is so less complicated to be reckless and give in to your passion the less history you have made because you are young. when i look back, it has always been about freeing myself from suffocation whether the culture or the family or expectations upon me. whenever i began to feel closed in, i fled. the goal was freedom to walk a new path and breathe a new air.