November 10, 2011 6:42 PM
today the cold wind outside my window woke me from a deep sleep of vivid dreams. i have gradually felt more optimistic and grateful to be alive than i have for well over a year now from events in september that shifted the processing / filters inside me. sometimes you have to revisit the past to be able to move forward in the spirit. i have a lot of work to do to earn the term “brave” and the quality of “courage” as was so often used to describe “jarboe” years ago. i want to be that woman again and i know what “being jarboe” feels like. i ask the universe for that chance again. i ask the universe and i ask my dear mother and my brother and my father and all my family here and beyond to assist me in being alive and well. i ask you, reader, to visualize the flame of life.