May 7, 2000

May 8 Tokyo Yesterday, a long train ride to visit temple grounds which included meditation halls scented with years of rich sweet incense , gardens with sublime elements like a pond in the shape of a letter representing ‘mind’, graveyards with the statues known as ‘stoneghosts’ and air filled with jasmine and hyacinth and cranes in the trees and a swimming snake and turtles bobbing their heads above the water… J

May 6, 2000

May 6 Tokyo Tonight was huge screens and neon and street fashion. This afternoon was a visit to artist Trevor Brown and the privledge of seeing a painting in creation stage as well as other beautiful work. (His site is linked.) Right now, sleep is seducing me. J

May 4, 2000

Tokyo March 5 7:20 A.M. Visited 3 temples yesterday and met dancer Shakti. http://home.att.ne.jp/gold/shakti/ Her current production Woman In The Dunes is the one Severin wrote the score for and for whom he asked me to sing ‘I Put A Spell On You’ We met at a popular hangout by a street bridge where there were hundreds of incredibly dressed young people. A number of them looked inspired by Trevor Brown’s images.Many were dressed as nurses with bandages and outrageous makeup. They apparently leave home looking quite conservative and then transform themselves in the train station restrooms into looks way more bizarre than, say, Marilyn Manson. But my favorite thing about Tokyo so far is the crows . One swooped down by me on temple grounds yesterday that was huge.Most of them are three to 10 times the size of the crows I love in Georgia. They wake me up here with their ‘caws’ in the morning. Wonderful.

April 27, 2000

4/27/00 Thank you Todd and M.O. 12:51 A.M. Light. With ARTERY, I come closer to the personal and spontaneous. Not just talking about my work , but also thoughts and observations of an everyday nature…..Since the site was launched, some of the highlights thus far : I’ve written and recorded MORE material for my upcoming cd: Disburden Disciple. …I’ve observed firsthand -courtesy of Mr Scott M. Martin, (interview to come) an inner sanctum event for Hollywood living legends, (book party for :Conversations With Wilder ). I’ ve completed eclectic, intentionally entertaining, and each one individualized –performances of The Living Jarboe – in Atlanta, Chicago, and New York City -for the Work In Progress arts program. …I ‘ ve met and even interviewed for the site, persons with insight and accomplishment…. And now, as I am about to embark upon my second journey to the ‘Land Of The Rising Sun’, (the first being the Japanese concerts on The Burning World tour), I am enthusiastic about the future and the exciting projects lined up ….. ready for Light. J

Tara VanFlower

tara_1The story of Lilith (a wild woman with inhuman blood- who was thought to be part snake*) is sadly misrepresented by the well-known Lilith Fair concerts. If there were going to be a concert lineup in the true spirit of Lilith and what compliments this aesthetically, an obvious choice is Diamanda Galas- but also in a completely different musical realm yet embodying free spirit, I nominate Tara VanFlower (Lycia) to be right up there on the main stage. Why aren’t there more women artists creating music as unencumbered by boundaries and limitations such as Tara’s first solo work: This Womb Like Liquid Honey? *See the 1986 book: Idols Of Perversity by Bram Dijkstra

JULY 23 1999

JARBOE: At what point in your life did you become interested in performance and/or making music?

TARA: I would say i was probably about 18 years old. I had just discovered all this wonderful music. I was out of school and had met a group of musicians. I realized i really wanted to use my poetry and voice in music.

JARBOE: What do you see as a source of inspiration? Can you reveal your muse for us?

TARA: Well, many things inspire me. I’d say mostly personal experiences. Whether it be something that’s happened….or a place i’ve been….or something i’ve seen that struck me in one way or another. A lot of the time i’ll just think of something, some sort of situation, that i want to try to capture with music or poetry. My beliefs are an important inspiration as well.

JARBOE: What are 3 things you have discovered as truths that other young women would do well to heed?

TARA: 1) there are many “things” in the world which seek to destroy you. 2) freedom comes through discipline (which i have yet to master!!) 3) it is vitally important to treat people the way you would like to be treated.

JARBOE: Hardship and perseverance can strengthen character but cal also feed cynicism. What do you see as necessary factors in an artist’s life to combat disillusionment?

TARA: Oh boy, this is a difficult one! It’s so hard to not give into that bitterness! I always try to believe that all things happen for a very specific reason, and that if something doesn’t go the way i think it should, then it just wasn’t meant to be, and therefore is for the better. I really strive to be a positive person, because i don’t believe being negative solves anything. I have not been able to completely master this, but i strive to, and i guess that’s the important thing!

JARBOE: What are 2 albums/recordings that hold endless fascination for you and why?

TARA: There are so many……

I’ll have to say LYCIA-IONIA because it was upon hearing this release that i contacted Mike, and thusly changed the course of my life. The second is a bit harder to choose……because there are just so many good releaases!! So, i’ll say SWANS-BURNING WORLD because on every trip or tour i’ve been on for the past five years we’ve brought that cd and it just represents so many fond memories…not to mention i just think it’s really beautiful and sort of stark in a way…very much has the feeling of the “southwest” to me.

JARBOE: How important are books and/or films as sources of creative stimulation? Can you name a few you have recently enjoyed and what they meant to you? (I find that certain purely non-musical arts recharge me sometimes and that energy goes back into my own creativity.)

TARA: Well, naturally i love good books and movies……but i rarely use them as a source of inspiration in my writing. I will say a number of passages in the Bible have conjured imagery by which i’ve written. (namely EZEKIEL 37:1:14 among others) The most recent film i saw that had a bit of a profound affect on me was EYES WIDE SHUT. Which i thought was really good. It had this desolate, hopeless vibe that really seemed to do something to me.

JARBOE: Is there a character from your childhood fairy tales or otherwise that made an impression upon you and why?

TARA: II can’t think of any specific character per se….but childhood in and of itself is an emmense source of inspiration to me. The whole idea of being able to return to that naive, innocent, unjaded mindset is just so appealing to me. I just think back to when i was a child and remember so many happy times. There were no worries……..you are taken care of……..and everything is magical. I just really wish i could be able to view the world the way i did as a child again. Through innocent, unjaded eyes. I’m always trying to write about this….and have yet to really capture it with words. I’m also really fascinated by the whole idea of “the monster under the bed” and those types of childhood things. Things lurking in the shadows waiting to come out when mommy and daddy are asleep. It all just fascinates me. I’ve written quite a bit of stuff about this “subject”.

JARBOE: Tell us something about your recording process that was perhaps unorthodox for one or more tracks on your new c.d.: This Womb Like Liquid Honey..

TARA: I don’t know that anything i did was too terribly unorthodox. I’m not a musician in the standard sense of the word. I’m not trained at anything…i just know what i want. So i guess in that sense, the whole recording process was a bit unorthdox. I based pretty much everything around the voice and vocal loops. i used things like butter bowls filled with rice, rusty wind chimes, things of that nature. A lot of what i did was way different than what we do in Lycia. Everything was sort of free-form to a certain extent…whereas Lycia is quite mathematical and structered. Also on a couple songs we left my voice very dry and direct….which is quite different from what i’ve done in Lycia.

JARBOE: You’ve just released this first solo c.d. In what ways was it a different experience for you from Lycia?

TARA: In a lot of ways it’s different. Lycia is more or less Mike’s baby. He has the final say. So when i work in Lycia there is a certain way Mike works. In my solo stuff i can do anything i want. We naturally have different influences and different ideas…….so what i would do on my own is going to differ from what we do together. Plus i write a lot of stuff, and have a lot of ideas, and it can’t all come out in Lycia….so it’s nice to have another outlet. I think that if Lycia “fans” go into my release expecting it to sound like Lycia, they will be dissapointed. It’s a lot different from my work in Lycia……and not quite as “pretty”.

JARBOE: Please tell us two “stories from the road” from a Lycia tour. Perhaps a stage / concert experience and a non-stage experience..

TARA: I’ll tell a serious story and an amusing story….. 1) One time we were playing a small art gallery in Pittsburgh and it was the middle of Winter. When i perform i usually don’t wear shoes, so i was walking around barefoot. I was sitting in a chair watching one of the opening bands play and a skinhead girl came up to me and asked if my feet were cold. Not really thinking much about it, i sort of nodded yes and she got down on the floor and started rubbing my feet. It was really strange for me because i’m not at all used to having people react to me that way. At any rate, i told her she didn’t have to do that…and she continued to try until she finally must’ve given up. The next time we were there a friend overheard a girl at the bar talking about all these things she wanted to do to me. Either it was the same girl….or i have some strange appeal to the girls of Pittsburgh!

2) Mike had been really sick from diabetes for a long time. He was basically getting more and more sick and so we reluctantly decided we were going to end Lycia completely. The work had just become too much to deal with on top of his health problems. We had agreed to play the Projekt festivals as our last “hurrah”. ( of course no one knew but us because we didn’t want anyone making a big deal about it) The final show was at irving plaza in new york city. It’s a beautiful venue with lovely lights and beautiful decorations. When we went on the crowd was screaming and cheering and it made us feel so good. Knowing this was to be the final Lycia show ever (or so we thought at the time) it was emmensely emotional. The crowd was so kind. It really just made this huge impact on us and it was hard not to breakdown and cry. Thankfully mike’s health is back and we are able to continue…though it’s doubtful we’ll ever “tour” again….just maybe a few shows here and there.

JARBOE: What are some other creative endeavors other than music with which you engage? (I know you make wonderful handmade dolls for example… Mine sits atop a big wooden clock my brother brought back from Germany that is now in my kitchen here in Atlanta)

TARA: It makes me really happy to know you liked her! I like to write and draw. I think writing makes up the majority of my “art”. Unfortunatly i rarely have time pursue anything other than work these days.

JARBOE: Please pick two songs from your new album and talk about what you were thinking when you wrote them..

TARA: TALITHA KOUM-I wrote this based on an idea i got from reading a certain passage in the Bible. In this part a man comes to retrieve Jesus because his daughter is dying and he wants Jesus to heal her. By the time jesus makes it to his house the girl is dead and the family is mourning already. So Jesus tells him she is only sleeping , to which they all scoff and laugh. So he takes her hand and says “little girl get up”…and she wakes up…..or comes back to life. So my idea for the song was to sort of tell the girl’s side of it. At that time there was no way to get to heaven because Jesus had not yet died….so there was this place that was divided (hence where pergatory comes from i think) so i figured the girl would’ve witnessed some pretty intense things. At any rate, i came up with the idea for the “words” after the music was written. The music had such a dark, almost cave-like vibe to it….like walking through the center of the earth. And around the recording is when i found that passage in the Bible. It all just sort of fell together quite nicely. (and probably not accidentally!)

OPAL STAR- I chose to do “my version” of TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR because i used to sit on my mother’s lap in front of the window watching the birds and we would sing this song. It’s always been a favourite song of mine too. My mom had moved away and I’d been thinking a lot about my childhood while writing the release…so it just made sense. I named it OPAL STAR as a tribute to my neice Cortny Opal.

JARBOE: what your plans are at the moment?

tara_2TARA: Currently we’re recording a treated acoustic project called ESTRAYA which will be released only on our website. We hope to have it available this Fall. It’s really simple and pretty….but very moody and emotionally raw. We will begin recording the next LYCIA release in October or November. We’re really looking forward to it because two of the old members are back! So it will bring in some fresh energy. We haven’t made any plans to play live….but i definitely want to do some. I guess eventually we will play out again…….we just don’t know when.

(JARBOE : personal note: when they do, I will be sure to catch a show.)

Visit the Lycia website for recording and performing info. http://www.lyciummusic.com

 

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Session Start : Wed Jul 15. 00:11:27
* Logging #dvoa to ‘#dvoa.log’
<whitey> Jarboe: why israel?
<film> : jarobe : how long have you been working on this rekkid with :
spybey : ? :
<teknoeden> jarboe, tell us about working with that chemical symbol for
morphine band (John Bergin)
<NC_SKIN> Jarboe: What have you been working on in your spare time
recently?
<JarboeONE> have musicians with a studio and eastern instrumentation
that are interested in working w/ me
<Jar you afraid of attracting a : frenzy of bulb cultists : by exposing
your preferences : ? :
<JarboeONE> plagal : bisexual
<JarboeONE> plagal : any reaction means some success to me…
<Plagal> Jarboe: one friend loved it, another thought it was utterly
evil and horrid…
<Plagal> Jarboe: this was in reaction to Sac Cake
<Plagal> Jarboe: either way i think you acjieved what you set out to do
<JarboeONE> plagal : if that was a reaction to entry into hell, the new
project is HELL
<Plagal> Jarboe: i know…i showed him the pics on the web site, he
freaked! Well done!!
<Cynoviah> Jarboe: I have to say I find the swans song Volcano terribly
entertaining! The first time I heard it I could not stop laughing.
<whitey> A slow ride to hell was always my favorite discription of Swans
music
<pammy666> :jarboe: a while back you mentioned that you lived in
taos,nm. why did you move and how long ago was that? (i live in
albuq.)
<Bish333> spybey: if you were on a swans tribute record, what song would
you like to do
<spybey> bish333: terribly hard question
<Serdar> jarboe: if there was a movie out there that you could re-do the
soundtrack do, which one?
<spybey> bish333 can i say BLIND of Michaels solo cdZ?
<Bish333> spybey: yes, that is a personal favorite
<iCky`> I’ve always liked I Am The Sun….
<dwright> vlaf- i forgot what it’s called
<spybey> bish333 can i also say one small sacrfice, wos ?
<spybey> i mean terrencem both are not swans songs!
<Plagal> believe it or not, TGA got me closer to god….
<JarboeONE> pammy666 : i was a kid living in a commune
<JarboeONE> Cynoviah : a certain type of humor was intended
dancing at the age of three
<foe-burn> JARBOE: i really dig the tune you made on the Throbbing
Gristle Tribute!
<film> : jarboe : my intention was to find out what you do : with
expendable time : you see i knew the mall cops would be : at the
fountain at : 7 :
<JarboeONE> SPYBEY : PISSFROND is INCREDIBLE !!! heard last night ..
thank you
<spybey> you’re welcome jarboe
<Serdar> Jarboe: Was the title for “Anhedoniac” inspired by the
discarded title for “Annie Hall?” (strange but true…)
<JarboeONE> ANHEDONIAC : psychiatric term : inability to experience
pleasure combined with alcoholIC/ maniAC
*** JarboeONE sets mode: +p-s
<Serdar> jarboe: right — the discarded title in questio was “Anhedonia”
(no “c”)
<Plagal> JarboeOne: I was first ‘exposed’ to you when i heard Yum Yab
late one night on community radio station (with real bad recpetion). why
is it that it was that song that made me fall in love with you?
<JarboeONE> serder : interesting i didn’t know that… thanks
<teknoeden> jarboe: do you enjoy touring?
<oranje> what about a dvoa tribute cd? ive heard things!
<Attis> jarboe:when are the swans gettign back together?
<JarboeONE> teknoden : yes extremely so.. . the stage part
<teknoeden> i got only one chance to see swans. i would like to see you
guys tour
<WhiteLigh> Jarboe: Do you plan to work with Michael again in the near
future?
<film> : jarobe do keys : sometimes save your : proven methods : ? :
<Plagal> jarboe’s goen quiet!
<teknoeden> any date on the spybey jarboe thing in chicago yet?
<Attis> jarboe:if there was a car headed straight for both mark and gira
and u could only save one person who would it be?
<JarboeONE> white light : i would like to very much at some point
<Plagal> Spybey and Jarboe: for some reason, Nicole Blackman keeps
popping into my head..what re your thoughts on her? Would you like to
work with her?
<spybey> plagal: to be honest i don’t know her work
<teknoeden> jarboe: what are you listening to right now?
<dwright> jarboe- odd fan question for you – how did you get in touch
with Origami Republika?
<JarboeONE> teknoeden : massive attack
<Serdar> jarboe: have you caught peter sotos’ new book INDEX yet? (i
know he has another coming out as well, title escapes me)
<teknoeden> mezzanine?
<JarboeONE> dwright : tore has been a friend of mine for many years
<_Vlad_> mark: i even stole it from da radio station 🙂
<JarboeONE> Serdar : yes.. have known peter since ’83…
<dwright> Jarboe- thats great! Tore is a really nice guy. i love his
fake records!
<Plagal> JarboeOne: I was first ‘exposed’ to you when i heard Yum Yab
late one night on community radio station (with real bad recpetion).
What frame of mind/ what were you thinking/ trying to achieve when you
made that track? It”s quite scary…..one of my fave’s.
<JarboeONE> yes, origami opened for swans in trondheim last tour
<Serdar> jarboe: a lot of people have talked about how his work has
imprvoed a hundredfold since TOTAL ABUSE, which is in itself
intimidating — what’s he like personally?
<WhiteLigh> Jarboe: can one say that you are resposibvle for the melodic
turn Swans done in 1987?
<glassE> jarboe: my friend john-paul said he was never as scared of a
human being as when you did young god on the last swans tour
<dwright> jarboe- is tore/marhaug going to put out a solo cd of yours?
<JarboeONE> Plagal : yes.. it’s a little ditty ode to madness the title
is referencing a buddhist term
<JarboeONE> WhiteLight : that’s what michael utilised me for at one time
<JarboeONE> serdar : peter is really a sweet lovable teddybear
<JarboeONE> glassE : thank you i consider that a tremendous compliment
<WhiteLigh> Jarboe: sounds to me that you were a real influence, a
sensible one….
<Serdar> jarboe: <G> you would scarcely believe it… just finished a
book called COIN LOCKER BABIES that I think would be right up your alley
if you haven’t checked it already.
<glassE> jarboe: well i was there and you did have an overwhelming
presence although over-all i think i liked the show in 95 a little
better
<JarboeONE> dwright : i contribute to his various compilations. a
Treverbrown picture disc with my work will be coming out from trondheim
soon
<iCky`> Jarboe: how much musical control did you have over the Swans?
I know you wrote a number of lyrics, but did Gira have complete control
over instrumentals?
<Serdar> jarboe: viva trevor!
<dwright> Jarboe- that is fantastic. i just say a Trevor Brown gallery
exhibit in Los Angeles. i’ll be sure to pick up that picture disc!
<JarboeONE> icky : next batch of reissues “VARIOUS FAILURES” will
contain never-released long instrumental passages with my orchestrations
<Attis> jarboe:is gira still a drunk?
<Attis> jarboe:if both frank sinatra and sammy davis jr were still alive
who would u rather work with?
<film> : jarobe : do you think bell bottoms were a plot by the soviet
union : to destroy the us armed forces by making : male children born
between 1940-and 1960 : raving homosexuals : ? :
<deeno_> JarboeONE: Was it hard working with a british bastard?
<spybey> man, irc is a strange beast
<JarboeONE> attis : the answer is on my new project : ANHEDONIAC ..
* spybey is a british bastard
<Plagal> Spybey & Jarboe: have either fo you worked or plan to work with
the Coil boys? or The Current 93 boys..etcetc?
<whitey> Jarboe: just wanted to say I’m a big fan of your keyboard
playing. I can’t think of anyone that has added to a bands sound without
taking over like you have.
*** Attis was kicked by _Vlad_ (be nice.)
<JarboeONE> deeno : i flew to philadelphia to catch INVISIBLE tour jsut
to meet mark in person and he is a complete gentleman
<deeno_> JarboeONE: Yes, from what i hear you were in philidephia too.
I remember seeing you!
<foe-burn> Jarboe were you contacted by the spice girls to take the
place of Ginger?
<film> : jarobe : were you ever on : charlies angels : ? :
<Serdar> jarboe: same question – any particular record?
<Plagal> Spybey & Jarboe: What about Australian artists? Have you heard
of DAvid Thrussel (snog)?
<WhiteLigh> Jarboe: have you ever been into magik or something? Are you
still a budhist or catholic?
<Attis> jarboe:any plans to work with laswell again?
<deeno_> JarboeONE: Do you feel that location alters the mood in your
music? Do you get influenced by location?
<JarboeONE> whitelight : when everything is going well, i’m a buddhist,
and when its not, i’m a catholic
<WhiteLigh> lol
<WhiteLigh> Jarboe: that was a good one!
<JarboeONE> attic : laswell.. very possibly regarding a percy howard
recording i am working with in spring 99
<e-23> jarboe & spybey & dave : define GLAE ..
<JarboeONE> deeo : location : yes definitely butit is the location of
emotion/ mind
<WhiteLigh> Jarboe: you must have about a dozen projects!
<Plagal> Jarboe: West Side Stroy… I feel pretty..embelish!
<JarboeONE> plagal : that was a drunken escapade
<Plagal> Jarboe: It was phenomenological!!!!
<WhiteLigh> Jarboe: I really would like to know your all time favs and
biggest influences
<film> : jarobe : and spybey: you have yet to answer 14 of me questions
: are you afraid of attracting a : frenzy of bulb cultists : by exposing
your preferences : ? :
<JarboeONE> plagal : bisexual
<JarboeONE> plagal : any reaction means some success to me…
<Plagal> Jarboe: one friend loved it, another thought it was utterly
evil and horrid…
<Plagal> Jarboe: this was in reaction to Sac Cake
<Plagal> Jarboe: either way i think you acjieved what you set out to do
<JarboeONE> plagal : if that was a reaction to entry into hell, the new
project is HELL
<Plagal> Jarboe: i know…i showed him the pics on the web site, he
freaked! Well done!!
<Cynoviah> Jarboe: I have to say I find the swans song Volcano terribly
entertaining! The first time I heard it I could not stop laughing.
<whitey> A slow ride to hell was always my favorite discription of Swans
music
<pammy666> :jarboe: a while back you mentioned that you lived in
taos,nm. why did you move and how long ago was that? (i live in
albuq.)
<Bish333> spybey: if you were on a swans tribute record, what song would
you like to do
<spybey> bish333: terribly hard question
<Serdar> jarboe: if there was a movie out there that you could re-do the
soundtrack do, which one?
<spybey> bish333 can i say BLIND of Michaels solo cdZ?
<Bish333> spybey: yes, that is a personal favorite
<iCky`> I’ve always liked I Am The Sun….
<dwright> vlaf- i forgot what it’s called
<spybey> bish333 can i also say one small sacrfice, wos ?
<spybey> i mean terrencem both are not swans songs!
<Plagal> believe it or not, TGA got me closer to god….
<JarboeONE> pammy666 : i was a kid living in a commune
<JarboeONE> Cynoviah : a certain type of humor was intended
<Bish333> spybey: i suppose any swans tribute would have to encompass
the skin and solo projects as well
<teknoeden> jarboe: any more of your father’s tapes to be heard in the
future?
<spybey> bish333 i adore the swans
<WhiteLigh> Jarboe: do you believe in Evil?
<spybey> FIVE MINUTES LEFT GUYS
<iCky`> Jarboe: or Good, for that matter?
<JarboeONE> to all : i will be signing off soon : please visit :
<JarboeONE> http://www.swans.pair.com/anhedoniac
<WhiteLigh> Jarboe: last question: do you believe in Evil?
<film> : jarobe : have you ever had : 7 toes : ? :
<Bish333> jarboe: is there anyone you’d like to pay tribute to or record
a tribute song for a tribute record?
<spybey> I WANT TO THANK JARBOE
<_Vlad_> thank you Jarboe
<spybey> OUR HOUR IS UP !!!
<Serdar> thanks to all that aided, a curse to all that hindered
<iCky`> wow…thanks Jarboe 🙂
<teknoeden> bye jarboe!
<deds> thanks jaboe.. you’re a godess (altho evil)
<deeno_> bye jarboe
<deeno_> thanks for coming by
<spybey> thanks to everyone who came here
<deds> er jarboe
<teknoeden> thanks mark & jarboe
<Serdar> thanks to mark and jarboe…
<WhiteLigh> dito, thanks a lot!
<spybey> today is a kind of special day to me
<bunniee> thanks to jarboe, mark is a wanker
<foe-burn> dvoa is jarboe former band!
*** Quits: JarboeONE (signing off presently. thanks mark for having me
on the IRC. it was very chaotic)

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