ANGEL

[Jarboe]
i prayed on bended knees through tears
and an angel was sent to me.
still i was blind and i could not fully see him
he opened in radiance to me completely
but in my ignorance i slapped him shut
and defeated all my happiness.
and now time is suspended
and i pray for a second chance
that may never come
for a second chance
to prove how i¹ve seen , how i¹ve changed.
i cannot go on without your love
everyone forgive me–
i¹ve lost the one thing that mattered.

A WOMAN’S DREAMS

[Jarboe]
i pretend…
i held myself…
i fall out of myself.
let it go.
a memory of me…
a flight towards disappearing…
a woman’s dreams…
watch over the memory of men…
i’ve gone to god…
let it go.

FERAL

[Jarboe]
i am wild in mourning
in a freezing cell
in a hollow hell
i am wild in sorrow
imprisoned in it’s jail
clamp down the bars across the heart
keep the hand of your ghost from ripping it out
force it to be still
s o r r o w
in a freezing cell
clamp down the bars across the heart
keep the hand of your ghost from ripping it out
force it to be still
force it to be still
force it to be still
ah to be still
force it to be still
force it to be still
s o r r o w
i hate through these tears
i hate through these tears
i hate through these tears

FOUND

[Jarboe]
i’m running
i’m empty
i’m consumed
you’re there
you’re in me
who are you
you’re there
you’re in me
i’m inside you
you’re there
you’re in me
i go nowhere without you
and if i found you
how will i know you
in precious time
in holy time
found you through the closing door
holding back the closing — door
my sorrow is simple
a salve
i’m sinking beyond strength to find you
i’m drowning beyond pain to find you
stain my heart
and if i found you
how will i know you
i find you through the closing door
and if i found you
how will i know you
you’re holding back the closing –door

PENANCE

[Jarboe]
lay your head upon my breast
hear the heart
i surrender to your open arms
i accept you as you are–
and what you will become
follow me
follow – your heart —–
follow me
follow your —- dream
lay your head upon my breast
hear the heart
i surrender to your open arms
i accept you as you are…….
and what you will – be come
a kiss is a sacrament
my prayer is a partnership
a kiss is a sacrament…
lay your head upon my breast
hear the heart —
i surrender to your open arms
i accept you as you are
and what you will become
and what you will become
follow me
follow your heart
follow me
follow your dream

SUBTRACTION

[Jarboe]
do you know who you belong with
do you know who you belong to
do you know love
do you know her face
how much subtraction takes place
do you know who you belong with
do you know who you belong to
do you know love
do you know her face
how much subtraction takes place
when i look at myself in the mirror
do i know you
when i look at myself in the mirror
i see you
so used to seeing you with me
in photographs and memory
i frequently see you there
when i stand in front of the mirror
alone alone
do you know who you belong with
do you know who you belong to
do you know love
do you know her face
how much subtraction takes place
you come from a woman’s body
you’re so close then so alone
came in a woman’s body
you’re so close then so alone
come from a woman’s body
you’re so close then so alone
you’re in – in a woman’s body
you’re so close then so alone

THIS IS LIFE

[Jarboe]
I won¹t go there.
The risk is too great.
I owe myself that much.
There is no answer
To console your doubt.
The way things ³should² be
Only exists in fantasy.
This is life real life.
You only have yourself to blame.
This is life real life.
You only have yourself
To save.
I¹ll hold you close, stroke your hair
But don¹t depend on me to be there.
This is life real life.
This is life real life.
Don¹t give yourself away.
Don¹t give yourself away.
This is life real life.
This is life real life.
You only have yourself
To save.
This is life real life.
This is life real life.
This is life real life.
My only responsibility
Is to me.
This is life real life.
My only responsibility
Is to me.
This is life real life.
LIFE
LIFE
LIFE
LIFE
LIFE
I won¹t go there.
The risk is to great.
I owe myself that much.
There is no answer.
To console your doubt.
The way things should be
Only exists in fantasy.

TO FORGET

[Jarboe]
i’m with you to forget my loneliness
i love you to love my loneliness
i love you to love my loneliness
and there’s no time
there’s no time for loving life
there’s no time
there’s no time for hating death
there’s only time
there’s only time to believe
to believe me
i’m with you to forget my loneliness
i love you to love my loneliness
and there’s no time
there’s no time for loving life
there’s no time
there’s no time for hating death
there’s only time
there’s only time to believe
to believe me
i love you to love my loneliness
i love you

TO FORGET

[Jarboe]